He n She!

He: You can say anything :)

She Would anything suffice? *hugs*

He: you make me melt. Hugs!!

She: Lets not talk today...Lets just hug and be lost in each other...Lets just be in the dreamworld..our world...

He: promise to love me there too...

She: Love is beyond worlds. It's beyond truth or fantasy and love in itself is a promise.

He: promise to love me always...

She: Promise....

She never understood him...& 1 year over here

She never understood him

Ahh!! She thought entering the computer lab for the last lecture. She rested herself on a chair in front of a computer.

As always she had chosen a cubicle with two computers. She did that to keep the whole load of books she used to carry to college on the other chair.

This was because she wanted to put forth an  image of a studious girl so as to avoid unwanted attention from (popular & stupid) guys.

She lifted the whole pile of books and kept it beside her. As she was turning back..she heard..."heyy wazz this"

It was...a  guy...of her college doing his final year.....

She knew that because he was the same guy who had saved her from one of his roudy classmates....in the first sessions of ragging.

Yet she didn't know his name...

She said...."am sorry......I didn't notice"

"its ok"

he stood up and walked away saying...that.

Some time after he had gone....she thought..that yet another time she had forgotten to ask his name.

It was 2:00 PM....she was at home now..

tired like anything as usual...heat was too high...

but she never slept...

how could she...

she used to wait for the afternoon chat...when "he" was online 

It had been months now that she had been chatting with him..first being on "4th of sept" .....

this guy..called.."Parikshit"..was a special friend for her's now.

She had shared with him....everything....that was going on in her life...and some of the things which she had not even told her parents.

She had found him to be a caring soul...to whom anything could be shared.

yes he was online that day.....

she told him what had happened at college....

He felt she was giving some iidications that she likes that guy.

Suddenly...what she saw on the chat box was

"Pragya"....I think you should concentrate on your studies. This is not the correct time to talk about love and boys".

"heyy come on..ikshi..I never said i liked him"

 

"ho ho ho....u r teaching me??......anyway I have some work to do..so cya"

Now..as the chat had ended so early...she went to sleep....

The next day at college...huh.....was the worst of all....

the same guy..she had a .."crush" on..had insulted her....for no real reason...at the college canteen.

She was damn upset...she shared it all to her chat friend...

he felt bad...but still didn't show it....at all.....

He kept on saying..."dear I think you should..be just worried about your studies..and nothing at all"

but later that day..when she was just cheking her mail....she noticed a mail from him....

long one...consoling her.... and also an e-card..saying "cheer up"

she was fine now feeling better...but her tender..young heart....fell in love with..yet another guy...

and this time it was Parikshit.

She kind of started giving him....subtle indications..with her silly and frank words.

Some days later....

When she went online for the chat......he wasn't there....she felt he was avoiding....

She felt....her "iskhi"...was tired..of her silly talks...after all she was a kid...not even 18...

She wrote a long mail...and..waited for a reply.....

What he wrote was shocking for her...and what she concluded was that he never felt the same for her.

The first thing she did was to now to change the name "ikshi" to "parikshit" on her chatlist...

"he can never be so close....."

Days passed by....

she was angry ..with all guys ...got back to books..... she studied hard...worked day and night with books...and she secured a high pecentage....

years passed by....she was 23 now....working at a software firm....

one day.......she got a call
.....she took it.....it was him....

"I Love you" he said....

She was surprised to hear that.....but this simple....chirpy....frank.... and yet intellegent girl had understood....why her "ikshi" chose to be away from her...

She was even more surprised to hear his voice....which sounded.....like....the college guy she had a crush on..

Love does not only mean....understanding....and care....but it also means sacrifice. Sacrifice needn't be of life......many a times that is very easy.

This is not completely fiction.....some of it is from my life....

1 Year On Blogger!!

I told you all not to miss this post......as today 25th of May......I complete one year of blogging....

A year of.....joy.....fun....anger....sadness....and now <3.

A big thanks to all friends.....all the readers........who read whatever I wrote....who....were there in thick and thin....

Some being close friends....some being....very special friends....

I had never ever thought I'd write a post like this......but many times what we never think happens.

Completing a year...of something......means a lot to me....coz I can never am  interested in anything like this for this long.

Even my parents are surprised :P

well.....I am no one to give you all anything... but I can surely give you a big thanks....

thanks all....for being with me....:)

ps:) do not miss the post on 27th may....

She belonged to him!!

After years she opened her personal diary that she had maintained from the age of 16. Now it was more than 5 years that she hadn't written anything.

The day was no good for her. She had a hectic schedule...tiring one...she tried to sleep...but couldn't. After all job hunting is not that easy.
Naima turned a few pages....one of the pages written on 8th April 1994.

"Aalekh looked at me today and passed a smile to me. I thought I would faint of happiness. I had been desperate for a glance from him."


When she read the name 'Aalekh' tears came out of her eyes. He was a gem of a person. Such an understanding, caring soul. She couldn't believe that he wasn't in her life anymore. Her dreams to get settled with him....all were shattered when*****he died in a car accident the day before their marriage. Her first love. She decided to live with his memories. Be single for the rest of her life.

She then thought about Samar(he was the one who introduced her to Aalekh). The name that she called her best friend.She missed his presence. He had not even bothered to come and console her. There was no one with her in the most difficult times. She was shattered.
Naima ....had always taken him for granted. Now she realized how important that stupid, flirty, funny guy was for her.
With each page...she felt she was reliving her past years.

When she turned the next page...something fell down....It was a rose...a red rose...
"My angel ... I love you"(written on the page). She kept it back as a memory of Aalekh.

She couldn't express what she felt.
Those words had great power..to make her forget all her troubles. She had been financially down for the last 2 months. Trying hard to find a job.
It was almost dawn. She got up from the floor, straightened her back. Got ready for another day..tough..but she was confident.
After locking her house she checked the letter box hoping for an appointment letter.
Everyday she had been doing this....but she never got a good news. But she still had hopes.
She just wanted it badly. Naima put her hand inside the box....there was a letter in it.
"God please let it be an appointment letter"
Ah! her face lit up. She had got a job. She felt it was a miracle. A miracle of love and trust.
First days of the job were difficult but soon she got settled.
One day as she was leaving for home....someone called out "Naima". She turned at once
and she saw Samar. (His office was just opposite to her's).
Samar: Hey how are you?Naima: I am fine. Were were you all these years?S: Me...? My dad had a project abroad so had to go there with him.N: oh!
She invited him to her house. He reluctantly said yes.
Seeing her open the door he assumed Aalekh must be at work.
S: So hows Aalekh?N: (with tears in her eyes) He's left me forever. He's no more.
S: (he was shocked) What? When did this happen?
N: On 17 March 1999.... the day before my marriage.

He couldn't speak up. Shocked...and guilty for not being there for her.
N: How's your life? Where's your wife? (she assumed that the 32 yr old guy must have been married).
S: No wife...I didn't marry.
He went away after saying this.
Naima couldn't digest this..."huh! this guy didn't find a girl for himself?"
Moreover his behaviour too had surprised her.
Days passed by...he met her daily....tried to make her happy...He had completely changed. This irresponsible guy who always made blunders had now become a caring gentleman and always used a white handkerchief(the gentleman accessory according to her).
At a restaurant one day.....after they had lunch...
The waiter came with the bill....as he took out his wallet one of his buddies came in...he gave the wallet to Naima... and told her to pay the bill.
She couldn't believe what she saw in the wallet. It was her pic. "Why on Earth would he keep my pic in his wallet?"
She took out the pic..
and turned it..
What she saw was even more shocking......
words....penned down...

"My Angel"

She could understand everything now...
the rose......
the words....
the abroad trip....
his being unmarried...
the change...
She now respected this guy. Who was in love with her but never told her so that she might not feel hurt.
In the depths of her heart......she too loved him for all that he had done.
She turned her eyes to the sky.....felt her name was true to her life....

Naima means belonging to one.



ps:) This is my very first attempt on a story as such. please do become my critiques :)
pps:) SPECIAL thanks to all (Jincy, Prashant, Harshita, Yamini, Madhuri, Sameer, Stephen, Diana, Sormita,Farah.) who helped me choose a name for the character NAIMA.
ppps:) The name Naima showed different meanings... when I consulted different sites..so just go with the meaning i mentioned above.