Umm.. Hmm..

Lot of things have been going on my mind since long. I'd like to just write them down. That's all I'm planning to do in this post.

1. Passions that last for a short while are often of uniform intensity. The ones that stay for years and years come with the spikes in the graph and a lot of patience to stick through the plateau period.
2. The definition of love is still a subject of research.
3. I wonder with the advancing age do people accumulate hatred in their systems.
4. The ones that you give to are usually not the ones you receive from.
5. The sudden love you feel towards someone could be because of your guilt as well.
6. People who do, don't speak. And people who don't do either ignore you or speak a lot of good.
7. In the hands of parents and teachers vest the power to make a human being what he/she really is. Friends can't change you permanently. They deviate you to good or to bad.
8. I can't take people who try to prove themselves to be good at everything. May be I just can't believe that such people do exist. DO THEY?
9. I tend to catch up with the issues with someone's character and then feel like a cruel step mom who questions her step children's vices. Be it vices or virtues. Cynical I've become towards a lot of people and things.
10. Adopting not your husbands name but your dad's is a good step. But I wonder why not take your mom's name as well or no surname at all (like me).
11. Contradicting point 9 I also sometimes feel it's not right of me to blame myself when I think wrong of someone. I could be right. That person could be ridiculous.
12. Hmmmmm. Dedicating the last point to the quest "So what ya Think?"

I, Then and Now!

I was a tender being

soft and serene

calm and happy

Then came the first bruise

I cried, it pained..

I thought this is the end

I'm finished..

I survived through...

bravely sharing my strength with others

ridiculing them for being so soft

..and then one day, day after day

cuts, hurt, tears, pains, aches ah!

I survived yet again.

I'm the courage. 

I'm the strength.

And today, I stand STRONG.

Dare you DEFEAT me.

Dare you let a TEAR fall off my eyes.

...but I doubt GOODNESS.

I doubt every SELFLESS move.

I shouldn't get cheated after all. 

I stand "STRONG".

I stand strong..

SIGH!!

That's what most of us have become. We are afraid to expect. We're afraid to believe. 

What to do. That's how the circumstances are.

I shared what I wrote with my dad. After he finished reading he told me that  in today's world it's not wrong to doubt people. But then when you doubt people about their good intentions and you feel people who're trying to present themselves as selfless before you could be selfish you should also try to realize that there do exist people who'll not bother about being depicted as selfish in the eyes of the world even when they are very selfless.

There's a point in that.

Be it not before the world but your mother could be the best example of that.

Love :)

 

 

Are you Insecure?

What gives rise to insecurity?

I've been wondering about it since a long long time.
I always thought insecurity is because you have something lacking in you. It might be.
But then who has everything? Or I should say who doesn't lack anything?
We often blame ourselves for being insecure.
We accept that something is really not right about the way you think of yourself or may be with us ourselves only. 
What people, well most of them, do is to just distract them with other things and make the pain less(?).
May be they don't have the courage to just face it outright.
Some wives whose husbands are after other women make themselves busy with their kids. Or may be career? Or something as such.
Some men who've very beautiful wives often doubt them, keep a watch on their every move.
I've met people who're insecure about their language, their colour, their figure, their qualification. Well then tell me who's not insecure??

I really don't find it bad to be insecure. It's not a sin. It takes time for people to accept themselves as they are. But then that insecurity does creep in every time you see someone better that you in that particular aspect. Well the reality might be they too are jealous of you and feel insecure on another aspect or may be even the same (IRONY).

Insecurity is somehow the first step of knowing yourself. You need to know what you are. What makes you bow down your head or feel pathetic about yourself.  It's an intelligent emotion if you take it in it's stride. "yes I feel bad when someone is better than me in one thing that has been my monopoly". That's ok!
I tell you let it trouble you. It's not for any bad. It's just for liberating yourself.
And yes never try and distract yourself, never try and find something that kills your time and lets you to be away from that creepy feeling for some time. It won't help in the long run.

I've just scattered some insights. Didn't have much time to put it in a better way. 
Hope everyone is doing fine.
Love!